What i love
Since few weeks (and probably under the effect of growing november blues ) i came to think about myself and to reconcider my targets and desires. I know it’s still november, not january, but who said that a year starts at 1.1.?
However, i thought and this is a continuation of this process.
Beside of obvious suspects as my wife, my kids, my parents and other relatives, which we almost always love and care for, there is a question, that we constantly avoid. Because it’s hard to answer and hard to admit. What do we love about ourselfs? What is it what we are, that makes us great people? (yes you are too)
I’m trying to ask myself this every year or so, because it helps to regain the focus on the important things.
I love to create visions. And i love to create shapes from this visions. This is why i develop software today. This is why i think of me as a designer. Design is creation and shaping of visions and solving problems. And i love to solve problems.
Not every problem can be solved by software. Not every problem out there is a problem. As a friend told me “don’t tell me your 1-st world problems!”. He made fun, but the words are totally true. Many our problems are not. They might be inconveniences but not. real. problems. But in the software industry, especially in webs, we are solving non-existent problems. Or even worse, we create new ones first, so we can sell our solutions. To make money and get the merrits from other wannabes. And i’m sick of it. Big time.
Maybe it’s not the fault of all devs out there. You just wanna code and be paid for that. What could be wrong with that?
Ignorance. Sweet ignorance. It’s to hard to just take your responsibility and to ask, what are we doing here? Does it make any sense besides of making money no matter, what it takes?
I’m not that ignorant. May be, because i’m not as tech-nerdy as many of fellow devs out there. I care for my environment, for the society i live in and people, who are not that lucky. I’m not a coder rockstar and probably never will become one.
But i love to create things, things that help people to solve their real problems. Things that lower barriers and enable people to solve their problems themselfs.
To be able to do exactly that is what i desire for myself. The freedom to work on things that make sense.
The other was to live this love is to write. I love writing as reading. Probably even more than coding. Unfortunatelly it’s hard to make your living as writter than programmer. That might change, but i doubt it. But i’d love to have also the freedom to write. In my perfect dream i use 50% of my worktime for writing and the other 50% for creating beatifull problem solutions.
The last thing i want to write about is: i love to educate. Myself and others. Education is the perfect combination. You can educate through writing, through coding. And you enable others, you lower barriers. This is why i’m a bad performer when i’m coding on my own, and why i feel most productive in pairing, leading a team end/or coaching. When i create architectures and APIs. When talking with customers and creating solutions for them. I’d love if i could be do all this and making the world better while doing it.
PS: Making the world better is such a strong, yet abused, term. but it’s still the best expression for that, what drives my heart.